Beauty at every size, shave or not and more

Yeah, I usually don’t go into detail with this cos it’s touchy and no one is asking me but..this is my blog so I can write what I like! Trying to be somehow reasonable tho

I do not wish to be rude or hurt anyone’s feeling, but honestly, people get offended way too easily nowadays, I don’t believe that’s healthy..now without further ado

Love yourself,  you are fine the way you are, yes ok, let’s stop a second, it is one thing to not hate yourself cos you are not a size 0 or you don’t adhere to a standard of beauty, but what puzzles me is ,this seems to also mean “you can be super fat and still be ok”..well, I don’t think human body looks at it’s best when we are overweight, I do think body needs exercise and proper nutrition and that shows, people who indulge too much and pay no mind to working out, well, tend to look a certain way, you can’t tell me that’s how you are meant to be either… most people usually do eat a lot to get to that, ( I’m not even talking about morbidly obese people and no, people with legit medical conditions are not the majority, please) I am also aware that there may be shit going on in your life and thus you gain weight, hell, I gained 25 kilos (50 lbs) when I was at my lowest regarding self-esteem, but that is exactly why I pay attention, I know if I gain weight it’s due to me being unhappy, when I feel fine I eat ok and workout and I look fine too.

I honestly feel it’s more of an excuse to just eat what you want, but then again, I am not a huge fan of food as you know, I like it, I like some food more than other, but I don’t LOVE eating, it’s sometimes well, a necessity, cos if you don’t eat you die, and I must eat certain amount of carbs, protein and fat to achieve what I want, that’s how I see it, so maybe temptation doesn’t really play a role with me and I can’t objectively talk about it,  food as an addiction has obviously never been a thing for me.

So, people can eat what they want and be fat or not, that’s ok, but I don’t want people to force me to agree with that, like “omg you don’t find this girl beautiful!! you are the worst”,well damn no, I have preferences and we all should be allowed to! Like not wanting to have sex with trans women who still have a penis, what is wrong with you people!? we can choose whatever the hell we like!

I remember, when I was fat, a girl told me she liked me but not my looks and that maybe after I lost weight we could go out, or something like that, at the moment I was quite offended and most people would agree she was mean…was she? NO, she didn’t wanna date a fat person as much as I prefer not to date,I don’t know, blondes or girls who don’t workout at all, it’s a preference and we all can have it and she did nothing wrong by telling me that. I can see it now, I myself stopped talking to this one girl online cos of the very same reason.

Which leads me to the whole shaving legs thing… I do not like it when we, as women as expected to do stuff, like put on makeup, I barely do and only when I want to, again, this may be different cos I only date women and most women for some reason don’t care about body hair, I do though which is funny enough, I mean, if we are already dating and she stops shaving I’d ask what’s going on, I do prefer no hair thanks and I like to keep myself like that, but I also respect people and don’t try to change them, so I’d only end it, not talk her into shaving cos that’s not cool.

But, do most feminists purposefully not shave to go against patriarchy beauty standard? I mean, I know this one girl, she wears make up and is a lot more girly than I am ( I’m what you’d call a sporty femme) but she is like “meh I don’t have to look like this or that, I won’t work out etc” and some girls in her “group” won’t do anything that is considered to fulfill a beauty standard, even if they do like that, follow me?  I started working out to stop being fat, cos I hated what I saw in the mirror and how it reflected how incredibly shitty I was feeling, now I do it cos I wanna look hot, for me hot is some muscles and being fit, I don’t give a flying fuck when others don’t find this sexy or whatever, but it’s annoying when fellow women tell you “you are already fine, you don’t need more working out”, if you don’t wanna “submit” to beauty standards, ok good for you, I am not doing that, I like doing that shit , human body looks much better when fit, it’s my belief.

This was mostly a rant so, yeah.

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This photo created a huge hassle back then, this woman is really inspiring and I like her a lot, (her name is Maria Kang, if you are sorta agreeing with me so far, check her out, if not..well…)but people said she was “fat shaming”, well, no, we do make up excuses, that shit is real, I’ve made excuses, we all have had, “it’s too late, early, it’s raining, it’s cold, this, that” when we really wanna do something we do it, period. Again, if you are like, legit sick, you better rest, but still no excuse to go and eat a bunch of crap. Jeeeeeesus.

 

 

My head is a jungle (jungle, jungle)

Those are actually lyrics from this song… “jungle” by Emma Louise ..saw it on this ad for black opium perfume,anyway it works for my post too!

So a friend is briefly back from Australia, we met with the other 2 friends, I haven’t seen any since this one friend left, she was our pillar, I always said that, while it was nice to see them again…

Things haven’t changed at all in this year, we ended up talking about the very same things, making me remember why I didn’t see them for so long, I ended up drinking way too much ( for what I drink now) cos it was the only way I felt supa comfy and , yeah that’s lame eh, but again, at least I can better understand now why things are like that, so I didn’t get drunk but I did go well pass over my calories.

People say to move on, and let go, when you overeat/drink, I personally think : “Sure, you shouldn’t beat yourself up” but it doesn’t mean you just move on and don’t try to fix it, I went over by 830 freaking calories, so the next day, I ate 630 calories less than what is on my “schedule” this means today I can “save” only about 100, tomorrow another 100 less and then it balances out. Most people wouldn’t do that, but I’m lucky to work at home so I can and I did, this means hitting the gym on Saturday which is totally ok, so now I can really move on with that. Not forgetting what I told my returning friend, most people bore me when I’m sober and I wanna hang out with people I can stand sober.

Even if this means not hanging out at all, please refer to my previous post Say

Me may meet on Saturday, if we do, I’ll bring my own craft beer and have 2 and be done with it. As we speak, well, as I write I’m eating yummy fruit and checking Cinema for tickets for Nanoha movie, but no luck  u.u

Tomorrow shall be a day to watch all the new anime episodes!!

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a NanoFate illustration for no reason at all!!!!