Mind over matter

So, I can somehow easily overdo things, and go to extremes, been there done that a lot, I am finding a healthy middle point for many things in my life, I’m still struggling with food and that is what this post is about.

Keeping track on what you eat and nutrition is ok, like minding what you eat, but restricting certain food or, even worse, not wanting to eat this or that cos you can’t weigh it in the moment? Now that’s a bit too obsessive, and in the past I’ve had some issues with that, either slamming down 15-20 tacos in a sitting. 3-4 liters of soda, this of course has made me a bit wary and then I just stopped it all altogether. I’ve tried many things, paleo, counting calories, not counting anything,some crazy ass diets, some ok diets but boring as fuck, I haven’t eaten toast for years cos I got so sick of it lol.

So, I don’t wanna be all care free and just eat crap, I do work out cos I wanna look good and stuff, aye some vanity there, I see no harm in it, a little bit of course, not posing on the mirror all day long, fack, I don’t even like mirrors xD , I just want to chill a damn lot, thinking about how many calories more I have to eat ( my usual problem is I don’t eat enough,well trying to eat less carbs and being vegan leads to that you see?) heck, sometimes I finish food just cos I “need” X quantity to hit my goal for protein or fat or whatever.  Eating something I don’t wanna eat for those reasons made me think maybe this ain’t good lol.

It was so fucking good to just not mind that, yesterday I had some spring rolls with some sauce and a soda with my gf and everything was fine, I didn’t magically became obese or died lol, so I wanna be able to do that, sometimes just go out and eat stuff with people or alone or however, without worrying so much.

I will switch to this plan the vegetarian nutritionist gave me, it’s based on “equivalencies” , so 1/2 cup of legumes is one, a tortilla is one of cereals, etc, it’s still keeping and eye on things but way more relaxed, plus I’m not a real fan of cookies or chips or stuff so it’s all good, I have got me this meal reminder app though, cos I do tend to get distracted and forget to eat, so, will try that, of course gonna keep my 3 days at the gym, aiming to walk at least 3-4 kilometres daily ( modern society has us very sedentary ) and adding the yoga and insanity.

I already feel better, let’s see how this goes.


Workout complements / Sexuality on trend?

First the easy one, I got me a new routine, which only requires me to attend to gym to lift weights 3 days a week, really slaying them muscles of course, so I now consciously go and take long walks as much as possible and I also put my hands on some Wii games fitness related, included but not limited to UFC personal trainer and Wii sports. Yes that last title isn’t the calorie blasting machine but if you do stand up and move around like a crazy person you at least get more action than sitting on your ass. Plus it’s fun.

I found this channel,Good Health 24/7 there’s a lot on yoga and food and stuff but what I loved was the “Break free” and “30 minute fat burn” routines, cos:

a) It’s an Indian person, not a white person, that’s refreshing.

b) The music is cool

c) The workout is not too tiring but not too silly, perfect for active recovery or a random time when you wanna do something for yourself.

So, check it out and of course there are tons of other videos and styles out there, no reason not to work out ever!! Unless you broke something, then you might wanna take it easy, healing and proper rest are crucial!

I do suck at dancing and I am sure I am as rhythmical as an oyster, buried 2 meters underneath earth.


Used this one cos it has food I actually eat, nevermind the gluten free, if you aren’t allergic to it screw that trend! 



Sexuality, ok I’ll try to make it short and clear, back in my days, ( bear in mind I am over 30 ok? ) there were gays, lesbians, bisexuals, travesties, drag queens/kings and transsexuals ( never as out as now though, that shows more openness!) , but mostly people were like, females, males and some very seldom in-between. Now there are a-gender,gender fluid, bi-gender, I don’t know for sure but I am guessing there are polygender or something? Do not get me wrong, I am not against people being like that, I just don’t freaking get it and I don’t think I ever will and that is fine!

I do not enjoy how modern day requires us to like and accept EVERYTHING, I can respect something without agreeing or understanding it, I think we’ve lost a bit of free speech lately, can’t say certain things cos then you are biphobic, or transphobic or something along those lines, there are people out there like that, just like homophobes and racists, but we would do well to remember we are allowed ( we still are right? ) to have preferences, yeah I do prefer to date lesbian women who identify as female, I don’t make much use of words like “butch” and “femme” but I am not attracted to women who could go into butch category or those who feel like a boy someday and like a girl the other, I have read this is some disphoria… I am old school you may say, I like women who feel all the time like women and look as such and that is pretty much it. It should be ok too! *raises sign*

Speaking of which, I remember I made a list of the things I look for in a partner, I think it’s time to change it, she can eat meat if she wants as long as she’s not a meat maniac and doesn’t give me a hard time for being a vegan, just as I won’t give her crap for eating whatever she wants. She should though take care of herself, her body, at least be interested in working out and eating right, that’s essential in my life so…very sexually aggressive seems to have to be a must as well.

Back to topic, yeah, polyamorous, a/bi/fluid/gender, pansexuals,etc , I don’t get it and  it’s a deal breaker for me.




Level up soon + Str+10 Dex+10



I remember when some friends tagged along to go to gym… never lasted. So, you must know I’ve been in and out of fitness/gym for some years now, this is the first time I am designing my own routine!! I am sick and tired of the 20+ repetitions really, it is good in the sense that is has given me the endurance to lift heavier now that I am doing the 8-12 range, I absolutely respect my coach but he’s been treating me too girly lately, I know, came back from Germany with about 16+ pounds ( you euro edible tasty candy coins!!) but enough is enough!

First of all I am back to My Fitness Pal, I set up what seems to be the best ratio of macros for me, following a mostly clean diet, considering calories BUT , not thinking 500 calories of pizza are the same as 500 calories of veggies and beans, cos it is not, even if it is the same number, come on!  Seriously limiting the drinks and the formerly known as cheat meals now known as treat meals will be monitored closely.

Then I took some exercises that I was given by my coach, some are staple like squats and deadlifts,  I arranged muscle groups in which I think it’s the best way ( did research of course) , wrote down simple rules to resting times and repetitions range and how to mix’em up. So I should have solid 4 months of this routine.

I of course added cardio, 10 warm up and 20-35 to finish, of course some days will have burpess, mountain climbers other sorts of things, but as basics we got that. Also going out more, if only to walk.

Let’s see how this goes, I think it’s best to start in December than in January, I officially started doing my own thing on the 7th but this is the first week with my written down agenda. I am sure either way it’ll be awesome cos any change I will see will be good, maybe even better than back in 2013. ( was leaner but didn’t have that much of a butt lol ) The most important thing is I am not fixing on it, or getting frustrated for slow results, these things take time.




Goals for next birthday ( or before it )

1.- Buy a freaking gaming PC where I can run Diablo III smoothly.

2.- Lower body fat to around 19-21 %

3.- Buy new smartphone to play Pokemon Go

4.- Buy Nintendo 3DS to play Pokemon X/Y

5.- Be hottest than a stellar fusion.

6.- Truly enjoy being single

7.- Never to consider move in or live with a possible future gf ( if I do have a future gf she’s gonna have to be really supa awesome ). Noppers.



Yo-ho-ho and a bottle of rum! Not really

So, I deliver 2 posts today, I’m on fire! not literally thankfully. I used to drink a bit too much on the weekends, I always tried to keep it cool but I think it was more of a habit?  I think it was, can habits be broken easily? I’ve read it’s hard but… I stopped doing real drugs at 22, so guess I can wisely choose on what I get inside my body and what not.

I’m not saying alcohol is as bad as cocaine but well it’s legal, easy to get, can be cheap and it’s a core part of many social gatherings. Don’t take me wrong, I’m not this newborn person totally against booze, but I have some priorities that have changed, and drinking beer daily in Germany was awesome, to try so many different ones, when I go again I still will have some, but not daily for sure!!  That was a one time thing.

The thing is that I meant it when I told my mom I had my eyes opened, it’s worthless to drink cheap industrial beer, it has no art in it, no heart, it’s not as drinking craft beer, from very small breweries… And alcohol makes the body put a pause on burning fat,  I want to be a fit person, I want to look like I eat right, watch my macronutrients, go to gym and sleep enough and that’s what I’m going to look like, I was close to it last year, but I went the wrong way with late eating on unwise choices ( tacos are not food from devil, but the best time to gorge in carbs is not late at night, it’s early and before going to workout ) and also I’m 33, I gotta keep a close eye on my stuff to look well and feel well.

So my new intake on drinking is this :

I drink say, 1 time every 2 weeks or so, I bring my own craft or imported ( German most likely ) beer 1 or 2 will be enough, I bring my bento box with cool food to avoid the fries or other not so healthy options. I like fries,I am not saying I’m never eating them, but I prefer to make them on my own, have them as my cheat meal , cos I know then it’s only potatoes, salt and oil, the commercial frozen ones usually have so many additives, even flour and milk. Why? beats me, must be cheaper.

No drinking alone, I did this sometimes, I was bored I realise now.  So, I am ok with drinking, I still love beer, but man, if I am going to have to take extra care on what I drink/eat not to mess up my progress, it will be with some respectable beer, not cheap silly one. Plus making it less often makes it more fun and special, like you can love some food, but eating it daily may make you be sick of it at least for a while. I think this also happened, I drank so much beer in Germany, now I’m like.. omg no, but to be honest I’d love to have a glass of rose wine! Since I got no one to share with I don’t but maybe for next meeting with friends we can have a glass of this!

PS Drinks, some more than others, make you hungry and if you drink more than 3 drinks you will start to not give a fack and eat all you want at the time, and since liver is busy with alcohol, that you eating will go to fat storage, totally what most people don’t want!

Yeah that’s my new vision, the food ya know, no bread and very little if any tortillas, priority to proteins and fats and choosing some fruits over others. Easy peasy. Good_FP_skt1


To Paleo or not to Paleo?

Well..let us see, first of all I am going back to gym, working out at home is nice and all, I still want my bar for pull-ups but buying stuff for cool squats and a proper heavier bar is way too expensive at the moment, so I can either suscribe or simply pay per visit, we’ll see. These new 8 kilograms need to go or rather, these 20+ cms on my belly! I’ll ask my trainer for functional training, that is no silly bicep curls, only multi-articular movements, like squats, pull-ups, pushups, burpees, clean and jerk etc. I did that before and I was my leanest.

Second, I am going to try the paleo lifestyle, strictly for 30 days, as good as possible of course and then checking out what “modern foods” suit my stomach well and which don’t, for example I think the whole “No legume” is bullshit, yes they have these anti-nutrients, but those go away almost completely just by soaking 12 hours+ and cooking properly, I will eat less though, like say 1 cup a day tops. Also about the fruits, I dislike it immediately when people say NO to fruits,like a strong rejection, yah they have sugar but it’s not as in candies, I may not eat 3-4 whole mangos in a single time as I sometimes did though hehe, but nothing will prevent me from having 2-4 servings of fruits.

Of course I am not going to eat any meat, fish or similar, but as I think, you already know, I am going to be eating eggs, that the lovely old lady that comes to my market brings in a small bucket from her ranch.

The awesome good points of Paleo that I love are the focus on veggies, today I’ve eaten more veggies than in a regular day before ( shame on me!) or maybe it’s not that, I have eaten many different ones in a day, aubergine,zucchini,spinach,potato,asparagus and paprika!!! Also I’ve tried other ways to eat, slice an avocado and fill it with boiled egg for example…so good… and for my particular case of being Mexican, I am excited about removing tortillas, maybe not entirely forever ( must have my cheat meal now and then) but it’s something I’m so used to, I’m curious about how it will turn out.

No bread? No problem, here we don’t get real whole grain anyway, Germans though… they have these awesome options of “bread” so packed with nuts and seeds that it’s more like those are merely embedded on some bread. Truly fantastic.

As for added sugar… Ain’t nobody got time for that, does no good so everyone is better off without it. Alcohol? Hum..honestly, I don’t feel like I will be wanting to drink anytime soon and specially cheap industrial beers, so I may save myself for special occasions and only strictly either craft beer or imported German one hehe.  It’s more fun that way anyway I think.

Pasta? … well, when I REALLY feel like eating some, I will,sue me, but that happened not so often anyway,so nothing that I will really miss.

Supa processed food? I don’t think anybody really needs that anyway…yes don’t give me that eye when I go get my protein shake, can’t eat 20 eggs a day.


Getting off this train…

Well, after some months of giving it deep thoughts… I get off the veganism train, no, I won’t go running around wearing leather and buying stuff without caring if it’s tested or not and visiting Seaworld ( those idiots!!), but I may eat occasional eggs from Ranchs that old women sell near my house,  I looked back at how I was about this, how it made me feel, how it made me be and all that amazingly fun introspective stuff… I don’t want to ride my high horse ( a vegan ride, not on a real horse haha ) and be purist and totalitarian about things, when I trained at the gym I loved it, it was nice, but I also realize I over did it, I was so damn sore all the time, now training at home ( just started ) I’m taking it easy, respecting my body and giving it enough stimulus to get fit but also not too much that it can’t properly recover, can’t demand and not give back! I did get sore but something normal not crippling pain.

So back to the main point, I analysed and with my heart on my hand not literally omg gross, I do not see wrong in eating some eggs that the hens who are living a natural life lay, that old women sell to help support themselves and said hens, when I say natural life please do consider hens don’t go wild living in the forests, as far as I know they only live with us humans, so I chose to , instead of going around pointing my finger at people and isolating myself from anyone who dared to be : a) a not so good vegan b) not a vegan c) not even a vegetarian! c)not thinking like I thought they should think, I just let people be cos we are what we are and we are in different stages in our lives, of course I am happy, thrilled,blessed to have found a woman that is a vegetarian already and is trying to consume less dairy, I am, but I am not going to keep on feeling so tense about not being perfect about stuff, cos that is not healthy for my mind or body.

I don’t know how many people will take this, I am guessing not too well, and this is also another reason, being scared of losing a certain “status” or “common denomination”? I’m too old for that, I want to enjoy life, of course respecting my fellow animal humans and non-humans, I am still against many things, but also not others, like guide dogs for the blind, I don’t dare go and say those blind people are monsters enslaving the dogs, I am against police dogs though, cos it’s risky and they die and get injured.

Having said this… I’m still good old me, I decided I do wanna quit the snacks too, cos it’s not fun eating them on my own to be honest haha, and I want to train at home, at a reasonable pace and I want to fully embrace who I am and respect me and value and love me cos I am not doing anything wrong and I shouldn’t feel guilty so often.

So, if you are reading this and you know me personally and wanna keep being friends or something, cool! If not, that’s cool too cos it’s your call.

Ahhh, it felt so good sharing that… miau. 11060103_10153142961388836_518791952641537802_n




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