New view on the Bi.

Short title for a short post. I used to be one of those people who had negative connotations about the bisexuality and until recently I had been sort of thinking about it, it’s unfair to discriminate against someone for their orientation, like hello, I don’t feel like having people think weird stuff cos I am a lesbian right? Well, after some talking and lots of thinking, I realized I was biased, guess why? yes a bad experience, ok some few of those, but it’s no different than those guys who think “all women are so mean” or the gals who may consider “all men are pigs and horrible” because in their path they had a less than pleasant ( or more ) encounters with people who they didn’t got along too well.

On the other hand, there is a saying “you have the love you think you deserve”, I suspect it’s true, cos back then when I was a real mess and I despised my very being, well, isn’t it logical to expect I’d meet people who would reinforce this feeling? If you think you are a huge pile of crap, be ready to meet some toilets that will flush you down further, that is until you change your perception and then, almost magically, you will gravitate towards different situations and people.

So, what I try to say is, it’s not like these girls I’ve met were the way they were as a consequence of being bisexual, they just liked going around and most likely they ain’t even truly bi, just catching what’s available ( which is ok just like be honest people lol )

That is why my list of hmm preferred traits on a woman has changed, if she is an honest, sincere, good hearted person that matters, also if she funny and smart and weird ,but you know what I mean.

So ultimately I wanna apologize about the times when I actively refused to even consider dating bisexual women, due to my prejudices and past experiences.

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unrelated..or is it?

 

DemiSexuals

Ok read this  Demisexuality … Now, I am not really ok with so many “new” words for sexuality, like asexuals, and aromantic and aero or stuff, I read about it a lot, it’s very interesting but it’s a bit complicated, I know I’m a lesbian who likes women who are girly,well that don’t look like men.  But it was always weird to me,that everyone is like looking at people and being all rawr and I’ve usually been like “Yeah..I guess she’s cute…so?” very apathetic you could say, when I stumbled upon this demisexuality thing it made a damn whole lot of sense,it also explains why sex has usually been pretty crappy for me xD

I even at some point wondered what was wrong with me,since I know I can only like and fall in love with women, ( even if that has only happened twice in my life ) but I didn’t get all sexually aroused and stuff..like kisses are nice,but the whole thing…meh….but now I read more about it,I may not agree on it at a 100% ,but I think I can easily say without a problem that I fit the description at least in a 80%. Cos seriously, this rawr feeling, I’ve only had it ,well twice.  I think I like being like that, I just wished I would of known about it before, so I could present a solid argument to “defend” myself or properly explain why I find masturbation boring as fack. In any case, it’s nice to know I don’t have something wrong, I just need a special extra to get to that point. I think it’s specially good for the other person… she’s going to get it all together.

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Mark my words, I am not going to lose and I will be hot this time for sure,even if I must make 60 tamales I will work out!!! Of course Xmas asks for other sort of training.

A sane recompilation of lessons and guidelines I’ve learnt from the women I’ve dated

Not all of them omg, but like there are some who really showed me a whole new world and a better approach to everything,yes everything.

So this is for me to have a proper understanding and to ponder on, you may or may not understand reader, and that is ok haha. I won’t recap on L, she did show me ALL or I think a major handful of things that I do NOT want in a relationship, like ever again, I am thankful cos I wouldn’t know without having experienced first hand. She even told me once she could be a “step” towards something much better… Damn she was so,so,so right, so thanks for that,really thanks. I even learnt to break up with someone,well I didn’t do it right the first time…but I know better now.

So,from there we have Val, she..she was the first girl to treat me the way I want girls to treat me, being nice and gentleman like towards me, no, it doesn’t mean I wanna be super spoiled and stuff but yeah it was nice,so I’m not going to settle down for anything less than that, the only thing missing was time,she was super busy and well honestly I can be kinda pushy ( working on it ) so I kinda clinged onto her too much, hehe sorry bout that,but again,she was real and honest and we ended well, we aren’t friends,I don’t become friends with girls I was girlfriend with or even date, but it was ok, I learnt something very valuable.

And then we have H, oh my H, she showed me dates can actually be a lot of fun, that there are people out there who will ask you out and dye your hair, share chocolate with ya and share a commitment to something {even if it’s diametrically opposed to what you are committed to and yet it won’t cause a problem ( Paleo – Vegan haha ) } also to working out, I definitely want a girl who likes working out you know, MMA, crossfit,weight lifting,all of the above ,it is important to me so yeah, wanna have that in common. And she also showed me that,  cute good looking beautiful girls can like me as well,  I wouldn’t of dreamed to even talk to her a few months ago you know? So way outta my league I would of thought, and guess what? No such a thing,so well self esteem boost + 10 haha, that was really really nice. Also she was kinda a busy person but still had time,so it can be done. Too bad it didn’t progress further but oh well, there’s more time than life.

So little by little I’m finding out new things I like,few I don’t and I am polishing myself to be ready for a special girly who will show up randomly sometime haha,oh right she must NOT have EX issues..that’s the one thing lol.

I can’t, I can’t not write about KT, you know she’s been THE ex ,and will forever be,now in a much more positive light of course. Ahh damn I was so so mad at her, but we both fucked up so , she did show me I can dream big, I mean, I freaking went to  Germany right? I did it! And she was my first love…aww how cute is that? Now that I think about it…she’s been the only one. Also she was the first authentic original super pretty girlfriend I had, man she was so good looking ,well she is , haven’t seen pics..hmm but I bet she is, so well things got a lil messy but in the end,after years, literal years, I came to the understanding that it wasn’t a bad thing,we were young and silly but hey, I do have nice memories … am I getting teary eyes? stupid hormones… haha,so yeah, I also learnt I must be more considerate with the other person, not so clingy and drama free,which i am now..tsk a bit late I guess. But I do wanna go visit again say hi and stuff, can’t die without going to Deutschland again at least once.

I’m feeling happy , I am truly amazed I could write this haha, I wouldn’t dream of this some years ago,so thanks girls for showing me there’s more to life than the stuff I have had before…I’m gonna keep working on my mind and body and well, when I meet ( or meet again ) someone special who is right for me and I’m right for her hooray, in the meantime, there’s lots of books to be read and workouts to be done haha.

-deep happy sigh- Dafuq , a big hug and meow.

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Forma de admisión N. 224477

Ya lo hice dos veces,en inglés ahora aquí mi lista definitiva y resumida a la fecha de “Las cosas que yo busco en una mujer” No van en orden de importancia.

1.- Que sea vegetariana,vegana o coma carne una vez al mes o menos.

2.- Que le guste hacer ejercicio de algún tipo .

3.-  Que no sea bisexual,pansexual,swinger,poliamorosa, ni nada así,yo respeto todo en verdad pero nel.

4.- Que no sea junkie

5.- Que quiera en verdad estar conmigo y lo demuestre.

6.- Que sea cariñosa y fiel.

7.- Ya que estamos,que sea guapa.

8.- Y friki.

9.- Inteligente e interesante

10.- Que fucking speaks english.

11.- Que no pase de 3-4 años menos ni 1 mayor que yo. 

12.- Ah si,que no esté pinche loca, algo sí,algo celosa,claro,pero no axe murder crazy.

Creo que ya. Jajajaja y una nieve,no,en serio, no creo pedir taaaanto.

Que no cuestione la imagen de abajo. jojojo.

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The Quiet

All right been on a lesbo movie rampage…saw some titles on this site and gave some a shot.. this is such not a lesbian title, I don’t know what is people thinking…

We have deaf girl ( Dot ) and Nina ( the cheerleader person )… Dot goes to live with Nina and her parents cos …. hmm her dad is dead and her mom is dead too, ( they died a wee ago ) so she is not much welcomed, at school or the household, she starts to notice weird things, like how the Mom is always popping pills and all hysterical, the husband is kind of absent and Nina… well she seems to be your typical bitch,but soon we discover daddy likes to fuck his little girl and mom is sorta aware therefore she… takes shitload of pills… being deaf comes in handy cos people tells you a bunch of things about their lives!! We have Nina’s super bitchy friend and cheerleader boss or some shit and the guy she fancies. mr. Basketball player Connor…

Connor likes Dot,apparently only cos she is deaf, so he also tells her a lot of shit, come on people, don’t go around spilling your most inner secrets to people just because they can’t hear -.-!!!  So anyway, Nina somehow discovers Dot is not deaf at all… but that’s not really the thing, the point is, WHY WAS THIS NOTED ON LESBIAN FILMS? They do bond, Dot is aware of the thing going on with Nina and her dad and she tries to help her out by “distracting” him ( one time she breaks a statue outside the room, etc)  and well… Dot does save Nina when she strangles her dad after he finds out his daughter isn’t pregnant of him, that surely creates a bond between people!! But.. lesbian undertone? Cos you go and hug a person who is crying cos her dad fucks her on a very often basis? Whoa ain’t that homoerotic…not! Geez people, I’m glad I saw it, it is cool, but don’t go and tell me it’s on lesbian section when NOT A SINGLE GIRL THERE IS A LESBIAN, oh don’t dare to tell me it’s cos Nina doesn’t like boys at her school, being raped by her dad must certainly not make her be all happy and interested in having a relationship with anybody…

Is it cos the cover? ¬¬ don’t break my balls

The four-faced liar / Clara’s summer

Wow, just wow, I am watching The four-faced liar.. it’s been ages since on-screen lesbian scene makes me blush..and feel funny, lol, I feel like I’m 14,and they are not even naked..maybe it’s just the throwing against wall/put over sink + kissed hard+just do me now thing..  and intense sexual tension…awmm I miss having that.. meh, erhmm anyway the film is going pretty well, you get conservative couple, straight of course, the lesbian who is very carefree and a player and her best friend, a straight dude who has a serious yet fun relationship with Chloe …  of course this can’t remain the same for too long… long story short Molly ( the blonde “straight” till now ) has sex with Bridget ( the eh brunet lesbian ) in new year’s Eve in the bar’s restroom ( a classic ) ohh they start an affair.. STRAIGHT GIRLS Y U NO BREAK UP WITH BOYFRIEND BEFORE DATING LESBIANS!?

Jesus christ… “You keep me completely interested” that has to be one of the most amazing and romantic quotes ever… That is no sarcasm by the way…we do need a sarcasm font u.u

Anyways I loved it cos things aren’t perfect, people who are new to their sexuality do have certain issues and people who can’t/don’t want to commit have their own! I liked it cos it’s realistic.. the girl is all passion and rawr and smart and Molly likes this about Bridget, but Molly also wants a family and settle down and Bridget,well she’s trying you know… it may or may not end up well, but it’s a life changing experience for all, and they both are trying, and well the guy… I hated Greg.. ugg, cos he’s uptight and boring and bleh, I got pissy at Molly restraining herself and engaging to the dude, COME ON WOMAN, then again, we women tend to prefer the “safe” things we are comfortable with… -sighs- I remember I hated Kissing Jessica Stein because the girls did not end up together and now looking back, this isn’t silly thoughtless romantic comedy, it’s smart written scripts, Jessica discovers she likes this guy person and has an amazing friend and Helen discovers she likes girls for good ,or something ( she has a gf at the end of movie ) so yes, as much as I hate it when couples I like don’t end up together, I like it when the writer gives them the chance to see what it could be like, not magically granting them eternal happiness but allowing them to give it a shot. DAMN RIGHT

Hmmm I learnt from Bar scene that body language is indeed pretty useful, dammit why am I almost useless at it..meh.. oh right the other movie!

Clara’s summer… it was… humm.. I liked Clara’s friend, Zoey cos she reminded me of this girl who’s now in Alaska, same young looking ultra cute stlye,,just because of that I couldn’t hate her ..anyway it was a bit odd, cos the interaction between Clara and Sonia ( the cool lesbian, eh bisexual whatever ) is like, they talk once…twice..thrice..they stop talking, then they meet and have sex,decide to go to Clara’s aunt’s wedding or something and.. Clara chickens out and doesn’t take her only to regret it and going back in train to the camp, ah yes this all happens in a summer camp duh,with her friend cos now they are ok … and that’s it ¬¬… seriously? Pfff

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