Mind over matter

So, I can somehow easily overdo things, and go to extremes, been there done that a lot, I am finding a healthy middle point for many things in my life, I’m still struggling with food and that is what this post is about.

Keeping track on what you eat and nutrition is ok, like minding what you eat, but restricting certain food or, even worse, not wanting to eat this or that cos you can’t weigh it in the moment? Now that’s a bit too obsessive, and in the past I’ve had some issues with that, either slamming down 15-20 tacos in a sitting. 3-4 liters of soda, this of course has made me a bit wary and then I just stopped it all altogether. I’ve tried many things, paleo, counting calories, not counting anything,some crazy ass diets, some ok diets but boring as fuck, I haven’t eaten toast for years cos I got so sick of it lol.

So, I don’t wanna be all care free and just eat crap, I do work out cos I wanna look good and stuff, aye some vanity there, I see no harm in it, a little bit of course, not posing on the mirror all day long, fack, I don’t even like mirrors xD , I just want to chill a damn lot, thinking about how many calories more I have to eat ( my usual problem is I don’t eat enough,well trying to eat less carbs and being vegan leads to that you see?) heck, sometimes I finish food just cos I “need” X quantity to hit my goal for protein or fat or whatever.  Eating something I don’t wanna eat for those reasons made me think maybe this ain’t good lol.

It was so fucking good to just not mind that, yesterday I had some spring rolls with some sauce and a soda with my gf and everything was fine, I didn’t magically became obese or died lol, so I wanna be able to do that, sometimes just go out and eat stuff with people or alone or however, without worrying so much.

I will switch to this plan the vegetarian nutritionist gave me, it’s based on “equivalencies” , so 1/2 cup of legumes is one, a tortilla is one of cereals, etc, it’s still keeping and eye on things but way more relaxed, plus I’m not a real fan of cookies or chips or stuff so it’s all good, I have got me this meal reminder app though, cos I do tend to get distracted and forget to eat, so, will try that, of course gonna keep my 3 days at the gym, aiming to walk at least 3-4 kilometres daily ( modern society has us very sedentary ) and adding the yoga and insanity.

I already feel better, let’s see how this goes.

Workout complements / Sexuality on trend?

First the easy one, I got me a new routine, which only requires me to attend to gym to lift weights 3 days a week, really slaying them muscles of course, so I now consciously go and take long walks as much as possible and I also put my hands on some Wii games fitness related, included but not limited to UFC personal trainer and Wii sports. Yes that last title isn’t the calorie blasting machine but if you do stand up and move around like a crazy person you at least get more action than sitting on your ass. Plus it’s fun.

I found this channel,Good Health 24/7 there’s a lot on yoga and food and stuff but what I loved was the “Break free” and “30 minute fat burn” routines, cos:

a) It’s an Indian person, not a white person, that’s refreshing.

b) The music is cool

c) The workout is not too tiring but not too silly, perfect for active recovery or a random time when you wanna do something for yourself.

So, check it out and of course there are tons of other videos and styles out there, no reason not to work out ever!! Unless you broke something, then you might wanna take it easy, healing and proper rest are crucial!

I do suck at dancing and I am sure I am as rhythmical as an oyster, buried 2 meters underneath earth.

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Used this one cos it has food I actually eat, nevermind the gluten free, if you aren’t allergic to it screw that trend! 

 





 

Sexuality, ok I’ll try to make it short and clear, back in my days, ( bear in mind I am over 30 ok? ) there were gays, lesbians, bisexuals, travesties, drag queens/kings and transsexuals ( never as out as now though, that shows more openness!) , but mostly people were like, females, males and some very seldom in-between. Now there are a-gender,gender fluid, bi-gender, I don’t know for sure but I am guessing there are polygender or something? Do not get me wrong, I am not against people being like that, I just don’t freaking get it and I don’t think I ever will and that is fine!

I do not enjoy how modern day requires us to like and accept EVERYTHING, I can respect something without agreeing or understanding it, I think we’ve lost a bit of free speech lately, can’t say certain things cos then you are biphobic, or transphobic or something along those lines, there are people out there like that, just like homophobes and racists, but we would do well to remember we are allowed ( we still are right? ) to have preferences, yeah I do prefer to date lesbian women who identify as female, I don’t make much use of words like “butch” and “femme” but I am not attracted to women who could go into butch category or those who feel like a boy someday and like a girl the other, I have read this is some disphoria… I am old school you may say, I like women who feel all the time like women and look as such and that is pretty much it. It should be ok too! *raises sign*

Speaking of which, I remember I made a list of the things I look for in a partner, I think it’s time to change it, she can eat meat if she wants as long as she’s not a meat maniac and doesn’t give me a hard time for being a vegan, just as I won’t give her crap for eating whatever she wants. She should though take care of herself, her body, at least be interested in working out and eating right, that’s essential in my life so…very sexually aggressive seems to have to be a must as well.

Back to topic, yeah, polyamorous, a/bi/fluid/gender, pansexuals,etc , I don’t get it and  it’s a deal breaker for me.

 

 

 

Blow your mind

I am blowing my mind right now, Gods that sounds awful…but the upside of keeping to oneself is that you get to reflect upon your life and actions a lot, especially after you fuck up and lose someone, I do not say this in the traditional sense of “OMG what did I do wrong, I gots to fix it to get this person back!” Cos that is temporary, like cutting the weeds, I must instead look into the roots, the soil, otherwise the same problem or a similar one will just be there waiting to arise.

So, me being me, have started to read daily, ponder about life, meditate a bit, etc all those things that seems silly but actually do help a lot to clear the mind, you’d be surprised how much you can learn from not thinking,just not overthinking, not imagining things, just focusing on the moment and what do you want but, and this is key, not expecting anything to happen. I’ll provide links for more comprehensive articles about this but basically you give it your all to the things you do want, if they are meant to be then they will happen,come, come back, etc, if not, you are not expecting those things to occur in order for you to be happy, you can be happy while working for things you want, whether you get them or not.  For example, I do want to look super hot, sometimes I’ve got a bit fixated on the idea, cos the traces of being fat are a reminder of the time I was the most unhappy, I understand that, so what I think now every time I start to worry about it, I say to myself “Chill Nan, that takes a while, just enjoy being healthy enough to workout, eating well and one day you’ll look at the mirror and see amazing changes” and I do that whenever I am being silly. Works wonders!

Modern life teaches us to get a job, a career, to get more, more a dream lovelife, it gives us expectations and ideals, I’m not saying we just lay there and nod at what we have but, if we don’t like something, we may as well change it. Doing the same things and thinking it will bring different results is a definition of insanity, so, what I did was to sit tight and realize what I don’t like, example, being clingy, to ideas, to people, to goals, etc. Cos being like that makes me worry, which makes me insecure which makes me overthink, see how it goes? That is what led me to develop that mild eating disorder back then… Make no mistake, this used to be soooooo bad for me before, I was really really really clingy and insecure, it got better but this is the moment when that changes cos I honestly and sincerely got affected enough by losing this person, it was a wake up call, like a slap in the face with an iron goblet.  Do I want to talk to her again? Fuck yeah, but I am not expecting that to happen, if it does it’ll be awesome, if not well, I learned something invaluable. I am as of now living a freer life, can I say “freer”? it sounds weird AF.

The difference is that I am not doing this or changing this or learning new stuff just to “fix” things with a single, specific person,  I am doing this cos I do not like that part of me and cos my life is being much more better now that I practice this, hmm how to call it.. This approach.  I’ve felt peace of mind and all that, it’s really nice.  I’ll be 34 years old soon and a better me, how fucking awesome is that?

The song is unrelated to the subject but related to the title, it’s my new gym tune, along of course with “Shake it off” by Mrs. Swift.

So, enough self- reflecting today, will write later about pansexual people and all those weird things that seem to be on trend nowadays.

 

 

Ooopsie, I forgot to add the links, well this is the one I read most recently , Stop obsessing with what you want, there’s a lot more,  don’t think I go around giving flowers and sunshine in the streets lol, but I do cherry pick stuff that seems good for me, from all ideologies.

Goals for next birthday ( or before it )

1.- Buy a freaking gaming PC where I can run Diablo III smoothly.

2.- Lower body fat to around 19-21 %

3.- Buy new smartphone to play Pokemon Go

4.- Buy Nintendo 3DS to play Pokemon X/Y

5.- Be hottest than a stellar fusion.

6.- Truly enjoy being single

7.- Never to consider move in or live with a possible future gf ( if I do have a future gf she’s gonna have to be really supa awesome ). Noppers.

 

CA

Witty title not found

I usually find cool titles for my posts… this is an exception, so let’s get on with it. Things are ever changing, we know that, sometimes we just kind of have it blasted in our faces, maybe it’s the universe’s way to make sure you do notice!

I’ll be cryptic enough and say that life gives you rare chances to “walk the walk” or is it “walk the talk “? I don’t understand this idiom so well… Anywho, like you can say, express, verbalize, how much support and understanding and patience you can have, but then times come when you get to show it. That’s priceless and one must make the best of it. Give time enough time to set things where they go. So if you meet that chance, stick to all you said and be there, be patient.

Now, you know I’ve been struggling with the whole fitness/fat loss thing, well, I’ve lost 3 kilograms, of what I think it’s fat,yay, but I am not logging my food anymore, I am keeping mind of portions, using cups and my hand as a measure, but not weighing the meals anymore because it’s became too much, too much time thinking about what can “fit” the room for macros aka carbs, protein, fat.  Thinking ahead so much is unnatural I think, as it is to mindlessly dwell into anything just cos you’re hungry. This uneasy feeling when not being able to properly write down exactly what you ate.

Sure it helps to do it for a while, to get a feel of how well you are doing, I tend to undereat, so you can see this, but I am now just going by the vegetarian nutritional pyramid , I know what a portion of each food is, so  I just think “ok 4 portions of fruit, 4 of veggies, 4 of grains and legumes” that’s much simpler, because well, I still have to mind what I eat for the results I want, I was pretty fit a while ago, I want that, I never had abs per se, but my stomach was flat, and if I remember well, I did not log my food, I just ate mostly natural food, at least 4 times a day and I worked out very hard. So cleanish eating + working out.

I’ll keep some useful guideliness though, like limiting alcohol to once every 2 weeks or so,keeping it at 1. Not to overdo the tacos, those can be once every 2 weeks too. Almost no carbs at night.

I already feel less anxious so this can only be good, and for all other things, everything is fine and will be fine, eventually works out like that.

Just to brag, I got Hyper fury X RAM for my PC.

PS Watch “Salvage” movie from 2006, it’s sort of low budget, VERY good.

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Yo-ho-ho and a bottle of rum! Not really

So, I deliver 2 posts today, I’m on fire! not literally thankfully. I used to drink a bit too much on the weekends, I always tried to keep it cool but I think it was more of a habit?  I think it was, can habits be broken easily? I’ve read it’s hard but… I stopped doing real drugs at 22, so guess I can wisely choose on what I get inside my body and what not.

I’m not saying alcohol is as bad as cocaine but well it’s legal, easy to get, can be cheap and it’s a core part of many social gatherings. Don’t take me wrong, I’m not this newborn person totally against booze, but I have some priorities that have changed, and drinking beer daily in Germany was awesome, to try so many different ones, when I go again I still will have some, but not daily for sure!!  That was a one time thing.

The thing is that I meant it when I told my mom I had my eyes opened, it’s worthless to drink cheap industrial beer, it has no art in it, no heart, it’s not as drinking craft beer, from very small breweries… And alcohol makes the body put a pause on burning fat,  I want to be a fit person, I want to look like I eat right, watch my macronutrients, go to gym and sleep enough and that’s what I’m going to look like, I was close to it last year, but I went the wrong way with late eating on unwise choices ( tacos are not food from devil, but the best time to gorge in carbs is not late at night, it’s early and before going to workout ) and also I’m 33, I gotta keep a close eye on my stuff to look well and feel well.

So my new intake on drinking is this :

I drink say, 1 time every 2 weeks or so, I bring my own craft or imported ( German most likely ) beer 1 or 2 will be enough, I bring my bento box with cool food to avoid the fries or other not so healthy options. I like fries,I am not saying I’m never eating them, but I prefer to make them on my own, have them as my cheat meal , cos I know then it’s only potatoes, salt and oil, the commercial frozen ones usually have so many additives, even flour and milk. Why? beats me, must be cheaper.

No drinking alone, I did this sometimes, I was bored I realise now.  So, I am ok with drinking, I still love beer, but man, if I am going to have to take extra care on what I drink/eat not to mess up my progress, it will be with some respectable beer, not cheap silly one. Plus making it less often makes it more fun and special, like you can love some food, but eating it daily may make you be sick of it at least for a while. I think this also happened, I drank so much beer in Germany, now I’m like.. omg no, but to be honest I’d love to have a glass of rose wine! Since I got no one to share with I don’t but maybe for next meeting with friends we can have a glass of this!

PS Drinks, some more than others, make you hungry and if you drink more than 3 drinks you will start to not give a fack and eat all you want at the time, and since liver is busy with alcohol, that you eating will go to fat storage, totally what most people don’t want!

Yeah that’s my new vision, the food ya know, no bread and very little if any tortillas, priority to proteins and fats and choosing some fruits over others. Easy peasy. Good_FP_skt1

 

Clean eating for the win

So that was it with Paleo, it’s way too limited when you don’t eat fish or meat, I’ve read some people can successfully do it while being vegetarian, some even vegan ( HOW?) but for me it’s way too much hassle, I am not happy, I don’t have any fun eating anymore and it’s driving me insane. So fuck that. lol .

Well, not like I’m going to completely forget about it, I am going to go for clean eating, which is pretty much the same, except the premise is more reasonable because it allows whole grains and legumes. Of course I will not eat 1.5 cups of beans a day or 5 tortillas or 3 potatoes. But come on people, gotta have some tofu now and then and…and…sometimes I will have vegan sausages!! Sue me!

What I think it’s the best approach, for me at least, is to adhere to simple guidelines:

  • Do eat vegetables at least 2 times a day about 2 cups.
  • Do eat fruit but watching the sugar. ( 1 banana ok! but then only 1/4 of cup of grapes)
  • Do eat legumes  ( 0.5-1 cup) a day.
  • Do eat and switch between rice/quinoa 1 cup a day or so.
  • Do eat pasta say once a month?
  • Have a cheat meal once every 8 days, try to keep it sorta healthy.
  • Prefer fresh food, home prepared.
  • When buying packaged food, checking the ingredient list is short ( 1-6 ingredients) and none is weird ass chemicals or the first one is sugar xD
  • Keep working out!
  • Drinking enough water!!
  • Drinking green/red tea daily at least 1 cup.
  • Keep alcohol intake to 1-2 beers, good quality ones, for very special occasions or once a month.
  • No bread. Isn’t good here anyway.
  • Eat a variety of food through the week!
  • Added sugar! Ain’t nobody got time for that!
  • 20-30 grams of seeds and nuts daily, different ones. Yes!

 

Ok that is it… I find that much more reasonable than the former line I was trying to follow. Also , snacks? Eh maybe, very little, not very often. Brain is happier when you tell it you will eat the treat later and a little instead of saying NO NEVER.

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how I felt being paleo xD

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