One about fitness improvement

Ok, time for a fitness related post, you know I’ve tried to live the fit life, even joined a vegan bodybuilding and fitness group on Facebook, man so many stupid things I have to read..LOL but there’s also cool advice 🙂

I mean, most are people who know what they are talking about, but some are too focused on the holy grail of health..don’t get me wrong, I like to be in good health and shit, but I stop listening if you are anti soy, anti gluten, anti anything packaged, anti anything that doesn’t glow with the magical aura of vegan angels harvesting it, ok?

So anyway, I started doing something, I think it’s been a month exactly, I wish someone had suggested this to me AGES before..but well, all in due time ne?

LOGGING the motherfucking workouts, logging in the weight used, the reps and the sets, along with the order of the exercises.

It is a real game changer!! I can now SEE in paper, with numbers, that I doubled my bench press in 4 weeks! I can see I lowered my squat weight but I also improved my ROM, it’s so rewarding to see this, I use the good and old pen and paper, also a cute app FitNotes, it’s super simple, just how I wanted it.  Now I can actually see if I am getting stronger, which I am! This encourages me and takes out the randomness.

On the second part of my improvement, I decided to stay on my maintenance calories, which should be 2000, on the gym days, on the days off, I’ll drop a measly 100 calories, also I added 10 minutes to the cardio, the total is 22, nothing crazy.

The thing is, when I eat more carbs, I weigh more, cos water duh, but otherwise I still weight the same, but I can see something is changing, dat leg looks much better now..so we’ll see, haven’t had my evaluation yet, I sort of want to give it time.

I stopped trying to eat like, 2,200 cals on gym days, it’s TOO much for me, it’s uncomfortable, I totally dreaded it, so why to do it? You gotta try different things yes, but also work with what feels good, not easy, good, like I try and plan my day of eating ahead, if there is room left,then I sneak in a cookie or two.

I am not SUPER strict, I do weigh my food, yes, but I’ll also have a beer or 2 on the weekend, I am done with being miserable, so, will live the fit life but also keep having fun. Those candies one time a year will remain!

I also ditched the “cheat meals” completely, I love IIFYM (If it fits your macros) cos you have more flexibility. I just don’t eat out too often cos it’s harder to track the intake, but last week I went out to have a teriyaki burger ( vegan of course,do I have to mention that, at this point?) and I enjoyed every bite.

Ah right, I started doing these daily:  Leslie Sansone walking at home, it’s like, videos on YouTube, you walk lol, it sounds silly, but make no mistake! It’s really good and keeps the body moving!! Plus the lady is super nice.

Ok that’s it.

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Dat me at the end of gym

Freelancing and other things

Such a creative title, whoa so much power… lol well it can’t be helped, first I want to talk about my experience being a freelancer,  specifically working in UpWork (previously Odesk)

I started when a friend told me about it, I had jobs before you know, costume shop and others, but usually I couldn’t deal with less than nice comments or the stress so I, more than once, literally left running in tears… I knew I wasn’t good adapting to society and shit, but was this a sentence?

Fuck no, working from home was IT, I didn’t use my account much to be honest, that was hm 1 year and a bit ago, I just did what he suggested me, apply to EVERY job that caught my eye and wait, eventually I managed to get some very cool ones, ah cos let me tell you, besides the jobs that let you choose your own pace and you just have to meet the deadline, there are some that require a fixed schedule, those are a no-no for me, one of the things I like most about freelancing is that I am not chained.

I only choose those where I can freely decide if I want to speed like a maniac or take it easy.  Now, they all pay in dollars, I live in Mexico, so even low paying ones are so much better than a regular job here, the last in-person job I had paid something like, 2,200 pesos per 15 days, so 4,400 a month, IF , and I want to make this clear, IF they paid whole, cos you had to rush to bathroom and to eat if you wanted to keep your “bonus” , with one of my recurring jobs, the porn one, the one I like the most, with a single batch of descriptions I make that much, it takes me between 3 and 5 days, and it’s maybe 15 hours? 18 tops. The other job was 6 hours daily, Saturdays too. So you can see which one is the best!

The best part is I don’t have to go out lol, the second best part is da payment, is usually handsome! I also get small things, like for 5,10 dollars, but all counts! the third best thing is you get to do a lot of different stuff, I was only doing translations till I decided I was good enough coming up with shit as not to try “creative writing”, from casino reviews to health articles, it’s so much fun.

Some transcriptions too, some subtitle making, it’s cool to learn new skills on the go and if you don’t like something much, or someone, you just finish and never talk to them again, it’s dead easy.

Of course, sometimes I was a bit worried, when the next job would come? the next payment? which by the way is solved with the applying to all approach, last week I did NOTHING, this week, I had some subtitle translating for a language learning website, rushed porn, cos they needed it fast and an article on wellness. I managed to finish it all, it was super stressful yes, I am demolished, yes, but this happens every 2 weeks or so, I usually take it easy and have 1-2 projects at the same time at most. So, we can say I supa work 3-4 days a month, chill work about 7 and the rest is vacation. I’d say I’m winning in life. Some people are maniac all week long… -shivers-

This may not be for everyone, cos it’s not a “certain” thing, but I prefer to sometimes wonder than to feel chained with my life drained doing shit I hate. Of course some people love the job stability and to climb ranks, that’s good,  I am not saying it’s bad, it’s just not for me, so I’m happy that there’s different options for people like me.

Now on the other things that I mentioned in the title :

Back pain, I don’t know what you think about it and this is my blog so, regardless of what you think I’ll write what I think, lol.

There’s many books, ideologies and belief systems that claim that physical pain usually has an emotional cause, which I agree, why? Well, because, for example, when I sprained my ankle last year, I hadn’t had a sprain in like, 15 years, so why in that moment? I was again conforming in a relationship that didn’t make me happy cos it didn’t give me what I needed/wanted, the part of your body that gets you moving and points direction is your feet right? Well, after this incident, I had a lot of time to talk and it’s when I made some major changes, (again) in my life, so in the end, not being able to walk as usual, gave me the tools to decide in which way did I want to go with my life, relationships,etc.

So, a few weeks ago I had a contracture on my back, it was pretty annoying and bad, now, you know I tend to worry too much and think too much…most people get stiff necks when worried ne? Apparently for me is my back and a very particular spot, also sitting here for like 14 hours isn’t good at all,yes I was working but also, also, they asked me to have like 100-150 descriptions made by the 11, I decided, for myself, to have it ALL done by yesterday (the 10th for them) so that was my own decision. Anyway, the pain is back a bit, but it’s different, it doesn’t hurt to breath, which is awesome, so I’m debating between going to gym, getting it checked or staying here, resting 3 days and going back on Monday, since it’s upper body day today, so back,chest, bicep, triceps and shoulders.

I still worry sometimes yes, about for example, not doing well enough at gym, by the way, I changed weight in some exercises, less weight but full ROM, which is GOOD and works muscles better. I guess sometimes I still get impatient, but alas! I can see a bit of hamstring popping out now, so, this whole eating and lifting seems to the be key to being hot lol

I am not really worried about my trip anymore tho, I mean, I get nervous cos wahhhh, we’ll meet and omg! but I’m really looking forward, ah I should get my passport next week or so ,anyway that part is good I think.

I think I’m supa far from perfect, but we aren’t on earth to be perfect, we have to eat and we poop for crying out loud xD, we can improve every day tho  🙂

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1800 calories to be happy

Today’s post has surely a catchy title, this isn’t a new trend or even my calorie intake, it is the name of an awesome book, that I hope to finish today, if you wish you read it check this out buy the book here . It tells the story of a nutritionist, his famous clinic that has been having awesome results and a series of patients there, it deals with anorexia, bulimia, mistaking food for love and similar things, but mostly it reminds us that the real problem we have when we have some sort of problems related to food, are problems with other people and ourselves, it’s never just the food and weight itself, it’s also about your self image, self worth, the will to live, etc. I absolutely love it and I think it’s one of the most pleasant reads I’ve had lately.

On that note, I love to read,I think it’s my favorite activity, yet I haven’t taken the time, I can’t say I didn’t have the time, yeah I work but I’m blessed to be a freelancer and work from home, I do go to the gym but I go when I find it most convenient, so there’s no real time restriction here, I decided to take back those things that I love but for some reason I’ve left behind, this is how people lose themselves I think and I am just sorta finding me so I won’t let that happen. So I plan to be the book monster I used to be, I got more than enough material right here since I pampered myself and bought about 10 books last year and some are fucking thick.

Now on the main reason of this post, I think I’ve written about wanting to be in shape and going to the gym in a more consistent manner, but till this month I haven’t felt it was all in order, let me tell you what has happened or changed:

  • It finally sunk in my head that I really need to eat at least 2000 calories, if I want those gainz, also I learned, the more I eat (within reason and nutritious food) the more energy I have so it’s sort of self promoting.
  • It’s been 3 successful weeks in completing my programmed gym schedule,more on this later.
  • I’ve also been successful in stopping doing things that deter my progress and making smarter choices.
  • I’ve gotten much stronger than I’ve never been when lifting!

Ok, on the programming, I used to have the “all or nothing” mentality yeah? even feeling a bit guilty when I couldn’t go to gym for any reason, I learned to let go of that when I had a minor contracture in my back and I HAD to rest and nothing terrible happened.

For example this week, for some reason my cramps have been really bad, can’t even sleep, really painful this time.  It must be the bad energy coming out, so, this time instead of laying motionless in my bed, I decided to enjoy, I took the time to read properly, for hours, I did my best to walk inside the house, I’ve read it’s good for blood flow and what not and also cos I told myself I wanted to be a more fit, active person overall, not just inside the gym, it’s both a favor and a duty, I want to feel and look good, don’t let anyone tell you you are shallow or vain for wanting to be fit, it’s a form of self love that reaps benefits beyond the hot mirror reflection, it brings confidence, health, better mood, etc.  Plus it’s a direct reflection of how we treat our only and ony body, I think it’s only “bad” if you impose your ideas on others, but we don’t do that shit ne?

So another thing that changed was this sense of “failure” if you don’t do this or that, I traded that for a healthy self satisfaction for reaching my goals, still being wise enough not to force myself when I’m not feeling my best, yeah some days I’m not as motivated and I go to gym like “bleh” but that’s when discipline keeps you going, when motivation maybe isn’t there. Just in injury or extreme discomfort are good enough reasons not to go,this time for example, I’ve chosen to remain home, still be active and well, the week has 7 days, I think I’ll take my chance to deload, since I’ve been adding weight on my lifts every single week, which is fucking awesome, I now even have a proper log notebook for weights/reps. But every 4-6 weeks it’s wise to train at a lower intensity, so I think I’ll do that, do the same things just use about 70% of the regular weight and focus on the form. Maybe on 4 sets of 10.

I also added a stretching, isometric, short workout on the off-gym days, it feels awesome with them stiff muscles from lifting so heavy, so now I feel like I am truly beginning to be a healthy person, a fit girl, but getting away from labeling food as good or bad, I also lost the “cheat” meal mentality, that somehow makes me think I’m doing something forbidden and bad.

I also drink slower haha, this is good cos it gives my liver time to digest that delicious beer.

So, that’s how much things have changed so far, it’s a damn lot, it’s all good, I am quite happy. Now I’ll go and I hope you all have a wonderful day, night, week.

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Non-weight scales victory

So… the scale is slowly going down, but besides that I’ll list those small signs of progress that I’ve noticed.

 

  • I can now skip the rope 10 times in a row, I couldn’t do freaking 4 when I started.
  • The jeans a friend got me in December that were tight, are now comfortable to wear,but not loose in the ass.
  • Been attending gym 5-6 days a week successfully
  • Finally deciding on making fitness my lifestyle
  • Adding cardio to daily routine
  • I allowed myself to skip gym a day when I really didn’t feel my best, attention, I wasn’t just being lazy.
  • Cutting down on processed food and gonna cook again

 

That’s pretty much it, will see measurements in 2 weeks.

 

 

 

I like to move it move it

Ya know I work from home, so no taking buses and stuff for me, I do prefer to walk if the distance is within 35 minutes though, but I don’t really go out as much so… I do attend gym and work out, lift weights and battle rope and what not, also afterwards I jump on the bike, but being sedentary the rest of the day isn’t good!

So, besides the 10k steps, I like to do something else, I’ll share some of my favourites but you an of course find something you like, YouTube has A TON of free workout videos, specially cardio which is what I am aiming for at home, you may choose Yoga, etc.

 

Wii games  (there’s many more but I lack the extras to play them, like the board) 

  • The “Just Dance” franchise
  • Gold’s gym routine cardio dance
  • Walk it out

 

So those are my choices, of course I got 8 Minute tae-bo with Billy Blanks if I go for a very quick one.

 

Enjoy!!

 

New rules

Ok so I was taking a hard look at my life, regarding my nutrition, my habits and all of that nice stuff. I checked MyFitnessPal app and discovered I have been eating WAY TOO much processed food.  ( First of all, none of the canned/packed food I eat has MSG, high fructose syrup, sugar as the first 1-3 ingredients, etc) that is tasty, yes, does it add up protein, yes, does it have a wee too much sodium? Yes and also, sadly it does have a wee too much fat ( I love fat, but this is not the fat that I’m looking for) and I’ve been relying on them excessively. I haven’t cooked in a good while.. so it’s time to change that!

I’m not saying I’ll never touch anything outta package, but I want to make that around my 15-20% food intake, not 90% lol, I’m gonna shake off the dust from my recipe blog ( I do have one) and cook again  :3 I’ll still have hummus and cookies and stuff, just you know, gonna make it fit better.

I also wanna re-incorporate vegetable milk ( the kind with no sugar of course ), more stuff like tofu and trying out tempeh too! Much more veggies and also eating enough.. FAT, yes, ladies and gentlemen, fat is GOOD for you, you need it for hormonal process and to make some vitamins travel and what not. With this I mean food like avocado, nuts, seeds, not to go and gorge on fries ( that’s a new food group, carbfats lol ).  And in the right proportion but I know for sure I usually eat fewer fat than needed. ( Most of my tasty packaged food takes away from fat macro, for example)

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For the gym part, I am playing just dance or some light cardio daily, not a lot, more like 15-25 minutes, more for fun than anything but it’s a nice way to add activity.  I’m trying to do harder cardio, like really not being able to talk and sing lol, but for now I pulled off only 15 minutes, I’ll work towards 30 minutes or so  🙂 of course aiming to maintain an average of 10k steps a day too.

 

What aboot the booze? Ain’t nobody giving up craft beers, lol, but since this is going to be a lifestyle for me, I am going for  1-2, make it really count and on those days I found these tips, by a wonderful woman Sascha Fitness ( check out her SaschaFitness )

Drinking times:

  • Limit or avoid stuff like rice, oats on that day, since the body is already dealing with alcohol, which the body treats as damn poison by the way.
  • Limit or avoid the fats, cos your liver can only handle as much.
  • Load up that ass on veggies and protein.
  • Water intake should go up up up!
  • Drink slowly dammit.
  • I pre-add the beers I’ll have in a given day and behave accordingly
  • Eat before going out to drink!

 

 

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Make your numbers right 😛

All in all, this is what’s going on lately, also got in touch with an old friend, been meeting new people.

As an aditional note: I am not quitting all processed food and drinks, not forever not for 3 months, because I want to make sustainable, life long lasting changes, not quick fixes, this is the first time I’ve said it, this is going to be my new LIFESTYLE. So I can’t do the things I did before (ditching all for a while then back to it)

My head is a jungle (jungle, jungle)

Those are actually lyrics from this song… “jungle” by Emma Louise ..saw it on this ad for black opium perfume,anyway it works for my post too!

So a friend is briefly back from Australia, we met with the other 2 friends, I haven’t seen any since this one friend left, she was our pillar, I always said that, while it was nice to see them again…

Things haven’t changed at all in this year, we ended up talking about the very same things, making me remember why I didn’t see them for so long, I ended up drinking way too much ( for what I drink now) cos it was the only way I felt supa comfy and , yeah that’s lame eh, but again, at least I can better understand now why things are like that, so I didn’t get drunk but I did go well pass over my calories.

People say to move on, and let go, when you overeat/drink, I personally think : “Sure, you shouldn’t beat yourself up” but it doesn’t mean you just move on and don’t try to fix it, I went over by 830 freaking calories, so the next day, I ate 630 calories less than what is on my “schedule” this means today I can “save” only about 100, tomorrow another 100 less and then it balances out. Most people wouldn’t do that, but I’m lucky to work at home so I can and I did, this means hitting the gym on Saturday which is totally ok, so now I can really move on with that. Not forgetting what I told my returning friend, most people bore me when I’m sober and I wanna hang out with people I can stand sober.

Even if this means not hanging out at all, please refer to my previous post Say

Me may meet on Saturday, if we do, I’ll bring my own craft beer and have 2 and be done with it. As we speak, well, as I write I’m eating yummy fruit and checking Cinema for tickets for Nanoha movie, but no luck  u.u

Tomorrow shall be a day to watch all the new anime episodes!!

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a NanoFate illustration for no reason at all!!!!

Mind over matter

So, I can somehow easily overdo things, and go to extremes, been there done that a lot, I am finding a healthy middle point for many things in my life, I’m still struggling with food and that is what this post is about.

Keeping track on what you eat and nutrition is ok, like minding what you eat, but restricting certain food or, even worse, not wanting to eat this or that cos you can’t weigh it in the moment? Now that’s a bit too obsessive, and in the past I’ve had some issues with that, either slamming down 15-20 tacos in a sitting. 3-4 liters of soda, this of course has made me a bit wary and then I just stopped it all altogether. I’ve tried many things, paleo, counting calories, not counting anything,some crazy ass diets, some ok diets but boring as fuck, I haven’t eaten toast for years cos I got so sick of it lol.

So, I don’t wanna be all care free and just eat crap, I do work out cos I wanna look good and stuff, aye some vanity there, I see no harm in it, a little bit of course, not posing on the mirror all day long, fack, I don’t even like mirrors xD , I just want to chill a damn lot, thinking about how many calories more I have to eat ( my usual problem is I don’t eat enough,well trying to eat less carbs and being vegan leads to that you see?) heck, sometimes I finish food just cos I “need” X quantity to hit my goal for protein or fat or whatever.  Eating something I don’t wanna eat for those reasons made me think maybe this ain’t good lol.

It was so fucking good to just not mind that, yesterday I had some spring rolls with some sauce and a soda with my gf and everything was fine, I didn’t magically became obese or died lol, so I wanna be able to do that, sometimes just go out and eat stuff with people or alone or however, without worrying so much.

I will switch to this plan the vegetarian nutritionist gave me, it’s based on “equivalencies” , so 1/2 cup of legumes is one, a tortilla is one of cereals, etc, it’s still keeping and eye on things but way more relaxed, plus I’m not a real fan of cookies or chips or stuff so it’s all good, I have got me this meal reminder app though, cos I do tend to get distracted and forget to eat, so, will try that, of course gonna keep my 3 days at the gym, aiming to walk at least 3-4 kilometres daily ( modern society has us very sedentary ) and adding the yoga and insanity.

I already feel better, let’s see how this goes.

Workout complements / Sexuality on trend?

First the easy one, I got me a new routine, which only requires me to attend to gym to lift weights 3 days a week, really slaying them muscles of course, so I now consciously go and take long walks as much as possible and I also put my hands on some Wii games fitness related, included but not limited to UFC personal trainer and Wii sports. Yes that last title isn’t the calorie blasting machine but if you do stand up and move around like a crazy person you at least get more action than sitting on your ass. Plus it’s fun.

I found this channel,Good Health 24/7 there’s a lot on yoga and food and stuff but what I loved was the “Break free” and “30 minute fat burn” routines, cos:

a) It’s an Indian person, not a white person, that’s refreshing.

b) The music is cool

c) The workout is not too tiring but not too silly, perfect for active recovery or a random time when you wanna do something for yourself.

So, check it out and of course there are tons of other videos and styles out there, no reason not to work out ever!! Unless you broke something, then you might wanna take it easy, healing and proper rest are crucial!

I do suck at dancing and I am sure I am as rhythmical as an oyster, buried 2 meters underneath earth.

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Used this one cos it has food I actually eat, nevermind the gluten free, if you aren’t allergic to it screw that trend! 

 





 

Sexuality, ok I’ll try to make it short and clear, back in my days, ( bear in mind I am over 30 ok? ) there were gays, lesbians, bisexuals, travesties, drag queens/kings and transsexuals ( never as out as now though, that shows more openness!) , but mostly people were like, females, males and some very seldom in-between. Now there are a-gender,gender fluid, bi-gender, I don’t know for sure but I am guessing there are polygender or something? Do not get me wrong, I am not against people being like that, I just don’t freaking get it and I don’t think I ever will and that is fine!

I do not enjoy how modern day requires us to like and accept EVERYTHING, I can respect something without agreeing or understanding it, I think we’ve lost a bit of free speech lately, can’t say certain things cos then you are biphobic, or transphobic or something along those lines, there are people out there like that, just like homophobes and racists, but we would do well to remember we are allowed ( we still are right? ) to have preferences, yeah I do prefer to date lesbian women who identify as female, I don’t make much use of words like “butch” and “femme” but I am not attracted to women who could go into butch category or those who feel like a boy someday and like a girl the other, I have read this is some disphoria… I am old school you may say, I like women who feel all the time like women and look as such and that is pretty much it. It should be ok too! *raises sign*

Speaking of which, I remember I made a list of the things I look for in a partner, I think it’s time to change it, she can eat meat if she wants as long as she’s not a meat maniac and doesn’t give me a hard time for being a vegan, just as I won’t give her crap for eating whatever she wants. She should though take care of herself, her body, at least be interested in working out and eating right, that’s essential in my life so…very sexually aggressive seems to have to be a must as well.

Back to topic, yeah, polyamorous, a/bi/fluid/gender, pansexuals,etc , I don’t get it and  it’s a deal breaker for me.

 

 

 

Blow your mind

I am blowing my mind right now, Gods that sounds awful…but the upside of keeping to oneself is that you get to reflect upon your life and actions a lot, especially after you fuck up and lose someone, I do not say this in the traditional sense of “OMG what did I do wrong, I gots to fix it to get this person back!” Cos that is temporary, like cutting the weeds, I must instead look into the roots, the soil, otherwise the same problem or a similar one will just be there waiting to arise.

So, me being me, have started to read daily, ponder about life, meditate a bit, etc all those things that seems silly but actually do help a lot to clear the mind, you’d be surprised how much you can learn from not thinking,just not overthinking, not imagining things, just focusing on the moment and what do you want but, and this is key, not expecting anything to happen. I’ll provide links for more comprehensive articles about this but basically you give it your all to the things you do want, if they are meant to be then they will happen,come, come back, etc, if not, you are not expecting those things to occur in order for you to be happy, you can be happy while working for things you want, whether you get them or not.  For example, I do want to look super hot, sometimes I’ve got a bit fixated on the idea, cos the traces of being fat are a reminder of the time I was the most unhappy, I understand that, so what I think now every time I start to worry about it, I say to myself “Chill Nan, that takes a while, just enjoy being healthy enough to workout, eating well and one day you’ll look at the mirror and see amazing changes” and I do that whenever I am being silly. Works wonders!

Modern life teaches us to get a job, a career, to get more, more a dream lovelife, it gives us expectations and ideals, I’m not saying we just lay there and nod at what we have but, if we don’t like something, we may as well change it. Doing the same things and thinking it will bring different results is a definition of insanity, so, what I did was to sit tight and realize what I don’t like, example, being clingy, to ideas, to people, to goals, etc. Cos being like that makes me worry, which makes me insecure which makes me overthink, see how it goes? That is what led me to develop that mild eating disorder back then… Make no mistake, this used to be soooooo bad for me before, I was really really really clingy and insecure, it got better but this is the moment when that changes cos I honestly and sincerely got affected enough by losing this person, it was a wake up call, like a slap in the face with an iron goblet.  Do I want to talk to her again? Fuck yeah, but I am not expecting that to happen, if it does it’ll be awesome, if not well, I learned something invaluable. I am as of now living a freer life, can I say “freer”? it sounds weird AF.

The difference is that I am not doing this or changing this or learning new stuff just to “fix” things with a single, specific person,  I am doing this cos I do not like that part of me and cos my life is being much more better now that I practice this, hmm how to call it.. This approach.  I’ve felt peace of mind and all that, it’s really nice.  I’ll be 34 years old soon and a better me, how fucking awesome is that?

The song is unrelated to the subject but related to the title, it’s my new gym tune, along of course with “Shake it off” by Mrs. Swift.

So, enough self- reflecting today, will write later about pansexual people and all those weird things that seem to be on trend nowadays.

 

 

Ooopsie, I forgot to add the links, well this is the one I read most recently , Stop obsessing with what you want, there’s a lot more,  don’t think I go around giving flowers and sunshine in the streets lol, but I do cherry pick stuff that seems good for me, from all ideologies.

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