Stray kitty, collared kitty.

No, it’s not a new kinkier version for the famous rhyme “soft kitty, warm kitty” .. It would be nice though haha.

I have the urge to write about this cos today the people that I talk to ( online cos, you know, I don’t do social things too much,certainly not daily ) have showed me how much a wrong impression the general public has about BDSM, ( thank you 50 shades, thank you so much )

I’m not an expert nor do I know all about it, actually.. I am quite alternative when it comes to that, as with all the things in life it seems wonders why is she so peculiar, anyway, this came up cos in this chatroom I go to, someone was flipping about how fucked up it was, how gross it was and how much people tried to normalize “abnormal things”.. Excuse me, years ago homosexuality was still considered as mental illness.. one would expect that within a minority, people would at least try to understand or do as I do, I may not like something, and boy there’s so many things I do not like, but I still respect people and their ideas, in some cases it’s most like I tolerate them but, pffff.

So I tried to figure out why this person was so affected by it, I don’t think it could affect me, what someone else does with their fucking lives, much less would I have the need to question what makes others feel good, better. I failed cos this person just had this idea of people in this kind of relationships drawing blood all the time and walking off cliffs on command. ( I don’t doubt there are some people like that, but it’s not the majority cos then everyone would be freaking dead and there’d not be a BDSM community at all lol )

In any case, the other people seemed to agree,so I better quit the topic. But it was a bit disappointing to know how close minded we are as a collective to this date.

What I liked is that I am being lucky enough to be able to explore and enjoy this part of me that I hadn’t been able to, because I hadn’t met someone who could fit the role for me, I’m not a total submissive person so it would have to be someone who liked some feistyness grins . So, this person, we shall call her Hoho-sama for the time being, is just prrrfect for it, and the best was it just happened, no ad in kinky sites, no kinky chat either just, a regular lesbian chat and a fateful night. I don’t think I’d like to go back to be a stray, having someone that really cares and gives you attention and enjoys spending time with you is really the best, when you are just a stray people may give you shallow attention and think it’s amusing to play the whole “ah she says meow, I’ll play along”  thing for a bit, but they don’t really get, well I’m not sure what owners get, but I’m sure they must get some special joy out of it. Plus I’m lucky she doesn’t like sharing and that things are pretty good but nothing super extreme, which is ok for those who like that!

In case you wonder, I like playing kitty cos..meow, I love cats, always had, and we humans are animals, so I’m merely borrowing traits from other species, no I am not into furry nor do I think I’m a freaking actual cat.  Cats can be so soft and sweet, but also feisty and they are blunt, they don’t like you, they go away.

All in all, in this point in my life I am happy things are like this and I am looking forward to keep experiencing it and learning even more about myself in the process.  Thank you Hoho-sama I’ll make sure I keep meeting your standards!!!

 

 

 

Open letter for ex-Honey Lion

Hmm well shouldn’t need to add the “ex”, I’m never calling anyone else that, that was your name. Anyway, I don’t think you read this blog/entry but I still must write it all down.

So, just to let you know finally everything is good, my heart doesn’t have this small opening that it had and it stopped feeling hollow in this area when I woke up or listened to some songs. I don’t sigh when I read/hear German and ultimately I don’t want you back.

I don’t cos, haha weird as it is, I had this like revealing dream, like a compilation movie-wise of all the moments, signs and hints that your feelings were changing, seriously it was like a Power Point presentation, so I woke up like “Damn…Ok..well then that’s it” honestly looking back almost all my trip there was more like being with a friend now that I think about it, except that one day in Hameln ( that I loved and I’m so happy I got Stupsi, honestly I bought her and in my mind this idea came up “I’ll still have a good memory even after we break up”, I kinda was guessing it already it seems. ) and other few times.

So that and a dream I had last night ( I’m sure I had it cos I listened to the first time to a “forbidden song” which isn’t anymore woot ) and we were in a road trip, there was a serial killer..but eh thing is you had a gf or something and I didn’t feel anything in my dream, well sorta uncomfy, but that’s to be expected, so that is how I know I’m totally free! Hooray!

I could had sent you a message with this text but… not gonna do that, like ever, so here it is. I just had to say I even entertained the idea that you really didn’t want me to go over, at least as a gf, cos you were already out of love,  I once had a similar feeling, it really sucks, I don’t know if it’s like that but if it was, I’m sorry, it’s not comfy.

Ok that was all that I needed to say about this, us, you, now I can keep going ahead strong. Funniest shit, I may get a rise on my job lol.  Just one little advice, be more honest quicker! So..good bye , best of all for you, I was happy,I am happy now as well.